The Big 4-Omygodimnotinmy30sanymore

30.  Rainbow trout and a ribeye steak ... a campfire - Fontana with my dad.  Molly - Boopers.  Riding Tsali with Susan, Karen and Syl ... the Trek Navigator jacked up.  Susan.  Susan.  Susan.  Going to the lake.  Going to the lake.  Going to the lake.  Lots of Explorers (white ones).  Watching her paint.  Reading (lots of reading).  Watching her read.  The beach.  Ocean Isle.  Holden.  Barbeque chicken.  9/11.  Applying to the FBI (WTF was I thinking?).  Cindy left NIEHS - so sad.  I left NIEHS.  GSK.  Krystal. Tim.  Sharon.  David.  Nelson.  Tona.  Lapatinib.  It was fall.  I met Stephanie.  Breaking a heart.  Breaking my own heart.  Witnessing the miracle of a birth - Alekxander Rush Gouge.  A gift.  Joey and Jeremy ... Bent Creek, Asheville, road rides and good times.  Mountain biking - oh my.  Trek 4500.  Klein Palomino.  Titus Racer X.  Racing, lots of racing, probably too much racing  ... Tsali (with Syl, Karen and Dawn).  Lots of mud.  1st night ride.  Awesomeness!  Racing/winning ... Burn 24 (with Stephanie, Jill, Camye and Dawn).  Racing/placing Tsali solo.  Racing ... ORAMM (wow).  Road rides.  Trek 5200.  Scott Contessa Pro.  Seven Axiom.  Our group rides were pretty damn sweet.  Hop on a bike and do my routine 34 ... Beaver Creek Rd/Tody Goodwin ... highways to Heaven.  Oh how lovely the flats and rolling hills felt under my tires.  John and Jill.  Out of breath ... chasing Jill on a bike.  Dawn ... Blazing Betty.  Ski trips ... to Seven Springs, Snowshoe, Taos, Vail, Keystone, Breckenridge, Beaver Creek, Copper, Kirkwood, Jackson Hole, Heavenly.  Syl (Expert Only/Skull Bones) crashed down The Wall.  Sitting in the snow ... lunch with Stephanie in a back bowl at Vail.  Roost Lodge.  Key West.  Chickens.  Party.  Alcohol (lots).  The FRESHEST mahi ever - YUM.   Back packing the Smokies (J, J, sjc, sarah and shannon).  Mt. Le Conte.  The Cable-Cox Cafe ... Chili ... Steaks ... Spaghetti and meat balls ... Joey's Chicken ... Jeremy's Granola Bars ... sjc's lasagna.  Coffee and tea.  Red wine (lots of wine).  Japan.  Tokyo Disney.  Mt. Fuji.  Cleaning.  Working in the yard.  Working in the yard.  Working in the yard.  Church.  The Lion King (mom, kim and sjc).  The NC State Fair.  Carolina games.  Duke games.  Coach G.  Eastern NC BBQ.  Losing my job at GSK.  Carol - sweet retirement for a sweet lady.  Being in PA.  Eating her good cooking.  Roots Market. Interviewing at Gilead.  The time in between.  Reality uncheck.  Driving across the country to Colorado.  RMNP.  A bear.  A woman.  The airport ... words fail me.  Gilead.  Jennifer Sandoval - sent to me from God.  Crying.  OMG ... the crying.  Lori helped me.  Busy, busy .... keep busy.  Moab.  Fruita.  Missing my family.  Missing my friends.  Missing sjc.  Heart ripped out and crushed ... shoved back in my chest.  Reckless Me.  I'm so sorry.  Lots of feeling bad.  Skiing ... constantly.  Learning the powder.  Falling in love with Colorado.  Carrie.  Dancing.  Deb.  Want to meet for an ice cream?  Sure ;)  The Kitchen ... Your Kitchen? ... My Kitchen.  Paris - I think it's the sun.  Crested Butte.  Damn lay offs.  Moving.  Moving.  How many times have I moved??????  14ers with Deb.  Pikes Peak at night.  Mountain lions.  Snowshoeing with Deb.  Class 3 climbing.  Longs Peak.  Wetterhorn.  Kelso Ridge.  Camping in sweet Lake City ... she hates the mosquitoes ... but she loves me.  Venus de Miles.  CU - ugggh.  7.  I've moved 7 times.  Brandi's music.  My family comes to Colorado.  My mama and daddy on a plane ;)  Xander and Jody in the sea.  My heart ... ripped out again.  Thank you God for saving them.  My sweet, talented sister ... so thankful for her.    Back in oncology - a dream comes true.  Diane and Dina come to Colorado - Thanksgiving ;)  So thankful for them.  Christin ... a soul sister.  Moab.  I shouldn't be alive.  Fruita. Crested Butte.  Steamboat.  R/F/B/DM ... it WAS a fun trail - really.  The Colorado Triple Bypass.  120 miles.  The training rides ... my favorites ... not Deb's.  We can rest now.  Go fish!  Loving an Indian Summer.  Fall.  Carrie in CO.  Warning - Snow May Not Exist.  A little powder ordered just for me.  Syl, Karen, Lori, Christin, Carrie and Deb.  Surrounded by love.  40.