2009

Every beginning starts with another's ending.

Winter

"The snow doesn't give a soft white damn whom it touches."
- E.E. Cummings

Winter. I never really understood that word. It's only taken a few weeks here in Colorado and I have a WHOLE new appreciation for the word "winter". I have driven in several snow storms (scared to death). I have pushed cars out of ditches. I have almost busted my ass (many times). I have skied in -20 degree windchill. I have been stranded at a friend's house for days. I have dug my car out numerous times.

It's funny ... because nobody acts like the snow is a big deal here. I watch the news every morning before getting out of bed and they NEVER even mention if it's snowing outside. Finally, the weather segment will come on and it goes kind of like this ... "Well folks... expect snow today ... highs in the single digits ... back to you Bob." REALLY????? How much snow???? What time will it end????? How about some doppler images?????? How am I supposed to know if I should scramble to the grocery store and buy bread and milk????? :)

ANYWAY ... I love winter. I didn't even know it.

The Secret

It has been passed down through the ages, highly coveted, hidden, lost, stolen, and bought for vast sums of money.


I had dinner with a good friend of mine and she gave me a copy of The Secret. Now, honestly, I am normally not a fan of books that can be added to The Stack of Happy ... Susan loves and collects them ... I won't even read the first page :) BUT I decided to be nice and give this some of my time & energy ... and I have actually gotten something out of this book.

First of all... I thought there was A secret ... but there isn't. This is just a collection of modern-day teachers ideas about the power of positive thinking.

You can see the law of attraction everywhere. You draw everything to yourself. The people, the job, the circumstances, the health, the wealth, the debt, the joy, the car that you drive, the community that you're in. And you've drawn them all to you like a magnet. What you think about you bring about. Your whole life is a manifestation of the thoughts that go on in your head.
- Lisa Nichols, The Secret

I am so blessed. I recognize that more and more each day of my life.

I am so thankful for my friends, my job, my circumstances, my health, my wealth, my joys, my car and my community. Evidently, I am a powerful magnet and I am attracting good things into my life ;) Supposedly, you have 60,000 thoughts a day .... what are you thinking about? What are you attracting?

"One doesn't discover new lands without consenting to lose sight of the shore for a very long time."
- Andre Gide (1869 - 1951)

Seasons of the Soul

"Live in each season as it passes; breathe the air, drink the drink, taste the fruit, and resign yourself to the influences of each."
- Henry David Thoreau

November?

I skipped November. Well... I didn't actually "skip" it ... I just couldn't bring myself to write about it. I had moments where I wanted to write about everything that I was going through - but I honestly didn't think I should attempt to express myself. I was literally just trying to get through one day to the next. I am in a place now that I can write with a clear mind. However, I can't bring myself to blast everything that I've been through on a Blog. It just seems to do it an injustice.

Know this ... I have been face-down in the floor sobbing ... emotionally exhausted ... asking myself if I'm doing the right thing for me.

And know this ... I'm not in the floor anymore. I am on my feet. My tears and anxiety have faded away ... and now there's peace in my heart. I wanted to be in Colorado. I AM IN COLORADO. I risked everything to be here... and I made the right decision. I know that.

The snow has started to fall. That makes me very happy.